February 28, 2010

After Shower Blowjob

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February 27, 2010

Assignment

Last night Master and I stayed up until about 3am. We went straight to sleep as my left hip and leg were bothering me and I was dead on my feet. He woke me up this morning around 10:30am. We went into the living room and relaxed for a while.

We stayed home for most of the day and just relaxed. I mainly played around on the computer and Master played His video game. It was nice. Eventually we got hungry and decided to go out to eat. We had a great time at dinner, just joking around and having fun. While we were there I asked Him if we could stop at the video game store and pick up a copy of Burnout Revenge. We played it back when we had a PS2, and I missed the game. He granted it and so we picked up a copy! Yay!

But we didn't play it right away when we got home. While we were at dinner Master had given me an assignment to do. He wanted me to go through all my lingerie and throw out the ones that were old as hell, and the ones that just had tears and what not in them. So I dug through the dresser and gathered up my lingerie. I then put it all a laundry basket, sat down on my slave mat, and started going through the collection piece by piece.

There were a lot more pieces of lingerie that I tossed than I thought there would be. Most of them had holes/tears in them. Now while that isn't necessarily a bad thing, after a while it just doesn't look that great anymore.

I put the ones I was tossing out into a garbage bag and I put the rest back in the laundry basket and put it back in the bedroom.

I think Master is using this as an excuse to go out and buy more, once we have the cash. *giggles*

Then we played Burnout Revenge and it was a lot of fun! I had forgotten what a good time we have playing that game. We take turns, alternating who is playing once one of us finishes a race. :-)

So it's been a really great day.

Master wants me to put on some lingerie a little later on tonight. Yay!

February 26, 2010

Can't Think of a Title

Yes people. I know my blog posts have been rather mundane lately. But honestly there isn't a lot going on right now besides bullshit at work. And I'm sure you guys get sick of reading about it and I get sick of typing about it after a while.

Nothing seems to change. My coworker is back to her old shit. My supervisor is still doing nothing about it. And I'm still busting my tail to make sure we don't get to far behind.

Plus, it's the weekend now. So no more work talk. But right now, without that I don't have a lot to talk about.

Master has been suffering from insomnia again. My joints are killing me and my shoulder and back muscles are giving me no end of hell right now.

Thrilling subjects, yes?

Master picked me up from work today and we've been relaxing ever since.

SS was supposed to come over tonight but she ended up canceling because she wanted to sleep. But quite honestly that was fine by me because all she's been doing lately is complaining. And that gets so old after a while. And she's little miss gossip queen, and I didn't feel like hearing every little detail about people I don't know at all.

Master and I watched two episodes of 1,000 Ways to Die on His Xbox 360. I love that show. It's like Jackass meets Faces of Death.

Other than that I just look forward to relaxing over the weekend. Hopefully my shoulders will relax so it doesn't hurt whenever I move.

February 25, 2010

WTF

My birthday is next Thursday. I'll be 27.

Today, while I was at work I was in the bathroom washing my hands and I glanced up at the mirror when I noticed something bright in my somewhat dark hair. I dried off my hands and went back to looking in the mirror. I noticed it was a whitish/grayish color. I figured one of Ghost's hairs (since he has white and cream colored fur) had somehow found it's way to the top of my head.

I was fooling myself, it seems.

It was a white/gray hair. I can't really tell if it's gray, or white, but it's there. Just one lonely strand in the sea of dark brown hair that sits on top of my head.

I didn't pluck it out. It may not be there tomorrow, as I shed a lot. Yes. I shed. So what? :-p

But I saw it! And I saw it again when I got home and looked in the mirror. I told Master about it and He basically told me to shut up because He has white hairs in His goatee and on top of His head, and has for some time now.

So no sympathy there. *laughs* But I'm not really wanting sympathy. I thought I would freak out when I started getting gray hairs. But I'm not. In fact I'm starting to hope it comes in a bit more, and creates a streak in my hair. That would look kind of cool.

In the past I've asked Master what He would want me to do when I started going gray. He said I couldn't dye it, because I am forbidden from dying my hair. (I have no idea if that will change in the future, as far as getting my hair professionally dyed, but I am not allowed to dye my hair at home ever since I tried turning it red and it ended up a really fucked up shade of purple.)

So there we have it.

Wrinkles should be next. Yay or something.

February 24, 2010

Fuck You Snow!

Seriously, this is getting to be some bullshit.

Spring is "officially" only like what? Three weeks away or something like that? (I'm tired and can't be bothered with small details like "fact finding" right now..)

Well this morning when I got up and was getting ready for work I checked weather.com. It said it was going to snow. In fact they described it as "light flurries". Those over paid sons of bitches lied.

Most of the day it was fine. When I went outside on my lunch break to have a cigarette, it was snowing but it wasn't really all that bad and it wasn't sticking.

Then, as if it was planned, about a half hour before I got out of work it was snowing heavily and it sure in the hell was sticking. The coworkers in my carpool and I immediatley started e-mailing each other, basically going "This is going to suck!!!!"

Then MZ said that she wouldn't be going to school tonight. This was about five minutes before Master normally heads out the door to drive downtown. See, on nights that MZ goes to school, she drops us off down town and Master picks myself and AM up from there to take us home. Otherwise MZ wouldn't make it to school on time.

So I quickly called Master (thank Gods for a phone at my desk) and I was lucky enough to catch Him before He had left. I mean He has a cell phone, but sometimes He forgets it at home, so I was worried that I wouldn't catch Him in time.

I was glad that MZ wasn't going to school because I didn't want Master to have to go out and drive in this shit.

So finally we're out of work, at our normal time and we all hop in the car. It takes us literally 20 minutes just to get to the main road that leads to the interstate. So I sent a text to Master to let Him know not to start dinner yet because I was going to be late getting home.

We couldn't get above 25mph on the interstate. That's just insane. This isn't the worst snow storm we've had this winter, and yet it was the worst as far as other people driving like snails fuck.

It took over an hour to get home, but we made it safely so that's really all that matters.The weird thing was that the sky was purple for about the last 20 minutes of the drive.  That is a really weird color to see. It was actually kind of freaky.

When I finally stumbled in the door Master told me to call my mother because she had already called twice to see if I was home yet.

I had already called her, as soon as I got out of MZ's car, to let her know I had made it home safely. I'm almost 27 and she still freaks out when the weather is bad and I know if I don't call to let her know I'm safe, she'll eat herself with worry. My mother has an anxiety disorder, so I usually just call to let her know I'm fine so she can calm down.

Master and I ate dinner and have spent the evening keeping ourselves warm, and just joking around having a good time.

It looks like we're due for more snow tomorrow. Joy. Let's hope it takes less than an hour to get to work.

February 23, 2010

Not So Brain Dead

Well, not as bad as I was last night anyway. But it took me until like 2pm this afternoon to feel fully awake. And it wasn't for a lack of trying! I was downing caffeine left and right, it just wasn't helping.

I'm still not wired, like I thought I would be. But at least I'm coherent.

Last night I was just a lump on a log. Master took pity on me and told me I could skip my blog post.

The past couple of days have been pretty... normal really. There isn't a lot going on that is newsworthy at the moment, and I'm actually glad that there isn't. The past month or so has been so much drama, that I was gagging on it.

Although last night was kind of weird. Master wasn't tired, and I was ready to fall over, so I slept on the couch while He played His video game. Well I kept waking up due to coughing fits. So Master shooed me away to the bedroom, hoping that would help me sleep better. I have no idea what the coughing fits were from. I'm not sick. I had just taken a sinus pill, so... I don't know. And as soon as I went to the bedroom, I only coughed a little bit. Nothing like what I was doing out in the living room while laying on the couch.

Odd.

The work week is going very slowly, unfortunately. Even though I'm up to my eyeballs in work, and I'm busting tail to get it done, time is going ever so slowly.

I really don't have a lot to post about at the moment. I'm still feeling rather sluggish. I'm wondering if it has to do with the weather. We're getting snow off and on a lot lately. Maybe that's just fucking with me. Who knows.

Hopefully tomorrow I'll have a little bit more energy.

February 22, 2010

Brain Dead

I'm brain dead tonight and so Master is allowing me to take the night off from posting.

That is all.

February 21, 2010

Randomness

This weekend we've fucked three times, so far. Yesterday it was once, in the middle of the afternoon and it was great!

Today it's been twice, in a row. After the second time I laid there and enjoyed the body buzz for a while. I was a bit disappointed when Master left after a couple minutes to go put the pizza in the oven. I was hoping that He would lay there and enjoy the buzz with me. But after the first time He had already said He was going to put the pizza in, that is until I started to clean Him off and got His dick hard again. So I'm sure He was pretty damn hungry after the second time.

I have a little over a week before my 27th birthday. Unfortunately, my birthday lands on a Thursday, so I have to work that day. That bites. But the day after my birthday is my half day Friday, so that's a plus.

I don't really care that my birthday is coming up in all honesty. 27... Big. Fucking. Deal.

But still, who wants to work on their birthday ya know? It's a day where you want to be lazy. Well at least for me it is. But I don't have any vacation days left, so I will be going to work.

I've been watching RuPaul's Drag Race, season 2 on Logo. I loved season 1, and actually sat down and watched the entire first season this weekend. I love RuPaul. She is so beautiful, and funny! I would totally hang out with her.

We're supposed to get another 6 inches of snow. I am so sick of winter right now. I'll have to get up earlier than usual tomorrow just in case MZ decides to head out early. You never can tell with her. I can look outside and think that she won't leave her place until 6:50am or so, but the next thing I know she's leaving her house at 6:30am. Okay, so it's only 20 minutes, but that can mean a lot when you're getting ready in the morning and you're kind of sluggish to begin with.

Blah at getting up early.

But at least it's only 7:30pm and I have the rest of the evening to relax and be comfortable.

February 20, 2010

Magnetism

I've had this post rolling around in my head for a little while, but I wasn't really sure what to do with it. I don't think I am right now either, but I need to get it out of my head. (Plus I've been looking for a more in depth blog subject anyway.)

Master has this charisma to Him. I'm sure I've mentioned it in the past, actually. It is that charisma that first made me stand there in awe of Him. And yes, I do mean that. I still have the time I first set eyes on Him firmly set in my brain, to where I can play it back at a moment's notice in picture perfect detail. (In my head I slow it down when it gets to the part where He flips His hair over His shoulder with just a movement of His head. He had very long hair back then.)

And that magnetism of His is what demands loyalty from certain people in His life. Myself of course included. And when I say demand, I don't mean verbally. I mean with His whole presence. There may not be many who recognize that in Him. But I can think of at least two others, besides me, right off the top of my head.

One is BC. He has been a friend of Master's since High School and where he may run off and do his own thing and kind of disappear from time to time, when shit goes down he comes running at full speed.

The other is JO, a person I had not previously mentioned on this blog that I can remember because we don't see him very often. Master and JO have been friends for a very long time. I do believe since Elementary School. JO moved down to Florida about six years ago and so we don't see that much of him anymore. But again, if something happens JO is right there for Master with no questions asked.

Also, people from Master's past have a way of just sort of... popping back up. It has happened time, and time again. It's not always a good thing but it happens. I honestly believe that His magnetism has something to do with that.

I believe that mainly because I don't seem to have that "problem", and neither do most people I know. For most people, friends and such from the past tend to stay there. Not so for my Yote.

And after looking on dictionary.com and looking for alternative words for loyalty, I discovered that submission is actually another word for loyalty.

And I have always looked at it that way anyway, but it was nice to have that verified.

And so you may be asking yourself, well if you see submission as a form of loyalty, then how could you possible see a Master as loyal. Well, that's easy. I possess my Husband just as much as He possesses me. We just have different ways of showing it.

Also, to take control of someone, I believe that you must in turn submit a part of yourself to them. You are showing a side of yourself that you don't normally share. So you are opening up. You are vulnerable in a sense, in that moment. And once you have that deep of a connection with someone, such as what Master and I share, it is just an unspoken fact that you both naturally understand.

Also, you are submitting yourself to the journey with said person. Which again is something Master and I have done on many, many levels. We are totally committed to our journey together and will not allow anything to stand in the way of it. When we are perfectly in sync with one another, we can be quite the force to be reckoned with.

February 18, 2010

Boring Thursday

Today was a normal work day. In fact there is really nothing special about today at all.

I went to bed last night around 11pm. I had taken a Benadryl to help me sleep, and to also help with my sinuses. Master's insomnia is still affecting Him, unfortunately.

I got up when my alarm went off and went to work. The workday actually went by rather quickly, which I was thankful for.

When I got home I grabbed Master's wallet and headed back out to get Him cigarettes and to get us dinner.

His back and neck have been bothering Him, the poor guy. :-(

So yeah. Nothing exciting about today. But I'm kind of thankful for that with how stressful work has been lately.

I don't really have anything on my mind except getting through my half day at work tomorrow. We're going down to my dad's in the evening. But aside from that there isn't anything really going on.

February 17, 2010

Tag Team

Master and I make a great tag team. Seriously.

A while back Master had sent in His Xbox 360 Elite system for repairs. Well He got it back today and He called me shortly after it was set-up. He said it was working perfectly fine, but there was a slight problem.

When we sent the system in, the case of the system was in brand new condition. Master takes very good care of His Xbox 360. Well when He got it back it had a nice "X" on the bottom of it. It looked like it was done with a box cutter. Almost as if someone stupidly opened a box which they knew contained an electronic device inside with a box cutter and went way to deep with it.

So I promised Him I would call Xbox Customer Support once I got home. He would have called but 1) He hates being on hold and 2) He was already in a bad mood (He woke up that way) and He probably would have just cussed them out.

So once I got home I ordered pizza for dinner and then immediatley called Xbox Customer Support.

I got someone on the phone and I explained what happened. They in turn transferred me to someone called a "Resolutions Specialist". I again explained and this little mother fucker's only offer of help was to send us a box, have us ship His system back and they would fix the case. I have a feeling they would have just put a new bottom on it. But um, waiting another six weeks for a new bottom to be put on a system is retarded.

So I said no. After all it's on the bottom of the system, we don't actually have to look at it, but it was just the principle of the thing. This guy kept pushing for us to send in the system. So Master took the phone and bitched more.

He explained why we wouldn't send it in again rather simply.

1) The error the system was originally having was a known issue with their gaming systems. We did nothing to cause the error.

2) We shipped it and had to pay for the box because all they sent us was the label.

3) They had it for over a month.

4) It is our only other source, outside of the computer, for entertainment.

5) Some moron at their company is the one who did this damage. Why should we have to pay by waiting longer to get it fixed, when it should have never happened in the first place.

So the guy placed Master on hold and told him he was going to expedite our issue. To me that meant he would get a supervisor. So Master handed the phone back to me.

I got the same guy back on the phone who send he would send us the box to ship the game system, and it would be here within 24 hours. Son. Of. A. Bitch.

I went off a bit. I basically told him that both my Husband and myself had told him we would not send the system back in, that we wanted another form of compensation. And I told him to not make me repeat myself again.

So he was quiet for a few moments and he placed me back on hold. He came back offering one of a few things as compensation for our aggravation.

A free universal remote control for the game system. No. We can use the controller for that thank you.

A choice of one out of two games, both of which sounded like games you could pick up for like $10 at a local store. Again no.

Or a free plug and play kit, that charges the batteries of the wireless controller while you play, or while the system is on. Funny that, Master's just broke. Okay we'll take that.

He gave me a service request number and said it should be here within two weeks. So... I will wait until March 3rd. If that thing isn't here, I'll be calling them back.

So sometimes it pays to bitch, apparently.

February 16, 2010

Babble

I'm not really sure what to write about, so I do believe I will babble on about absolutely nothing what so ever.

Master and I had incredible sex last night. And shortly there after I was sleeping like the dead. In fact Master commented on that when He called me while I was at work today. It went something like this:

Master: "Hey babe, how are you?"

Me: "Tired."

Master: "Why tired? I know you slept well last night. I'm the reason for it."

Me: "*laughing* Sure hun. Just breathe on Your nails and rub them against Your shirt while You're at it."

Master: "I already am."

*giggles* He's a goof, but it's why I love Him. (By the way, I was tired because no matter how well I sleep, getting up that early in the morning instantly makes me tired. A morning person I am not.)

Work was okay today. Other than that there isn't a lot to report. Master had dinner ready by the time I got home, which was really nice. We watched a movie. I'm just enjoying the fact that I'm home and able to relax.

So yeah. Not a lot going on. I'm in a great mood still. I'm very much in love with my Hubby.

You know, I always know that I love Him and that I'm in love with Him, but sometimes that feeling is just more.... strong? apparent? I'm not sure really what to call it. It's just a wonderful feeling.

February 15, 2010

Monday Down...

... the rest of the week to go.

Last night after fucking again, Master and I curled up and drifted off to sleep. This morning when the alarm went off I wanted to throw it across the room and keep sleeping. Instead I quietly shut it off, rolled over, kissed my Husband as He slept and then got out of bed.

Although I didn't want to climb out of bed, I had to smile to myself as I stood there putting on my robe watching Him sleep. This past weekend with my mate has been wonderful. I was grateful to Him for helping me forget my worries for the past two days. Shoving His dick in me repeatedly is a damn good way to start. ;-) But the talking, the joking around, and just the relaxed feel to everything helped immensely as well.

Master has commented on my sex drive seeming to be up and at full swing again. He says He's not bitching, of course, but it makes me giggle when He says things like that. I think it's because the stress is starting to melt off. Things are a little tight financially, but I'm not allowing myself to freak out about it.

So I went off to work, and even though I was busy all day, and swamped beyond belief I was in a good mood all day long. Even on the ride home, when traffic was bumper to bumper and I knew Master was waiting for us to get to the place where MZ was going to drop us off so He could take me home, I didn't freak out. I simply sent a text to Master explaining that traffic was bad and sat back and enjoyed the ride.

I guess you could say I'm just mellow and some what care free at the moment. And I'm enjoying it. The depression and moodiness from being on the rag has finally lifted, thankfully. Although before next month's starts I'll have to look into some kind of Midol-like medication to see if it helps any. (Any suggestions/thoughts/ideas would be welcome.)

Life is good at the moment. And I'm taking the time to recognize that, and reveling in it.

February 14, 2010

Fucking Like Rabbits

We've been fucking like rabbits the past two days. I think it's partially due to the fact that things are finally starting to calm down on the family front, and we had that talk a few days back.

Yesterday we fucked in the afternoon, as you know from my previous blog post. Then last night, again Master claimed me and in fact used me as His toy for a while. It was the first time in a long time that He stopped during sex and forced me to suck His dick for a while, before flipping me onto my stomach and fucking me again. That was nice. :-D

Then this morning Master wakes me up by nuzzling the side of my neck. I raised my head enough to look at the clock. I saw that it was only 10:30am, grumbled, and plopped my head back into the pillow.

He chuckled at me, raised the blankets up and straddled me. I was already laying on my stomach so it was only a matter of moments before His morning wood was forcing it's way inside me.

I was awake after that. *laughs*

We went into the living room and relaxed for a while.

My father was supposed to come up today but his job called him in, so he had to cancel. It was his only day off this week, so I'm sure that did not put him in the best of moods.

So we had the entire day together, alone. Our friend SS called to "brag" about her night out last night, which involved her pissing on the side of the road at 4am, drunk, and blowing a breathalyzer test and getting a .13 on it and the cop not allowing her back in her car. Yeah. As I'm sure most of you know, from previous posts, drunk stories don't impress me. In fact they usually disgust me on some level. So when she starting hinting at the fact that she wanted to come over, I was quick to shoot that down. I wanted a day alone with my Husband. And I didn't want to deal with her drama today.

Tomorrow it's back off to work with me.

And yes, I've been glancing at accessories for my cell phone on the web. *laughs* For those of you who were wondering, I got an LG Banter. It's an awesome phone. I'll have this phone for the next two years, so I might as well make it mine with accessories, when I can afford them.

February 13, 2010

Master Won't Stop Calling Me A Techie

Today I set an alarm so I could get up at a half way decent hour. I got up at 10am. Master was already awake and in the shower. He told me that I could relax, so I went into the living room.

I had plans to visit my mother and brother, so I headed out about an hour after I got up. Before I left though I had to run to the gas station and get Master cigarettes so He wouldn't be cranky. *giggles*

So I go down to my mom's and we're relaxing in the living room. My mom brings up my cell phone plan. You see, my mom got me a cell phone two years ago as a birthday present. It's on her family plan, and it is coming up on the time that we would either have to renew it or drop it. She wanted to know if I wanted to renew it.

I knew it was coming up and I had already discussed it with Master. See, it's cheaper on Mom's family plan because I only pay like $30 a month, since it's on a family plan with her, her husband, and my brother. Master's cell phone plan doesn't count as a family plan until you have at least three lines on it. Well we have no one else to put on the plan, so adding me to His would cost about $50 a month. And getting my own would be about the same as that. I could go prepaid, but I never really liked those things and their phones usually suck.

Master and I agreed that staying on my mother's family plan would probably be the smartest way to go. That way I know I will have a cell phone for at least the next two years. With my work being about a 45 minute drive away, and my sometimes having to take the car, it just seems like a better idea to make sure I have a cell phone.

So I told my mom I would like to renew. She said we might as well renew it while I was down, instead of scheduling it later. So off to the cell phone store! While there the customer service rep tells us that I can get a new phone since I am renewing. *gasp* A new piece of technology in my hot little paws?!

I was bummed about it at first, cause I couldn't afford to buy a new phone, even with it being at a discounted rate due to the renewal. But my mom said that she would pay for the phone and I could pay her back later. Awesome! So... I got a new phone! And it's awesome! It has all kinds of ringtones on it, and I added texting to the plan, so I got a phone that has a keyboard on it when you slide the top part up! My cell phone has a "hidden" keyboard! *dances*

I love my phone! Love, love, love it!

Yes, I am a nerd. You just wait until I have a new computer. Oh. My. Gods.

We went back to my mom's house and relaxed for a little while. Around 2:30pm I headed back home and showed Master my new cell phone. I of course had to explain how the hell I got it, but He wasn't upset or anything. He just won't stop calling me a techie because I had to have the phone with a keyboard. Well, that and I can't seem to stop playing with it. In fact I have to have it by me at all times it seems.

When I'm at the computer, it's on the desk. If I'm on my slave mat, it's right next to me. My phone is awesome.

Although I didn't bring it into the bedroom. ;-)

Master had stood up to get something from the kitchen a few hours after I got home. I walked over to Him and got a hug, and He kissed the top of my head.

I of course reached down and started stroking His cock. He tried to pull away, gently, and said "You can play with that later Kitten."

I giggled and moved closer so my head was still on His chest as I continued to stroke Him. He chuckled and said, "Are you after something, pet?" I nodded my head. So He slapped me on the ass and ordered me to the bedroom.

We laid next to one another and teased each other for a while before He put me on all fours and fucked my brains out.

It was incredible! And after He filled me with His cum and we were laying there, with Him on top of me, we agreed that the connection we had felt was missing is back in full force! Absolutely amazing.

The rest of the evening has been spent just relaxing. We hate dinner and watched K-Pax, which is a great movie. Now Master is playing His video game and I'm just sitting here in a great mood, enjoying my weekend. (And my phone, which I obviously can't stop talking about.. And Master has now given up on calling me a techie, and is now calling me hopeless.)

February 12, 2010

Delayed Reaction

Do you remember that fall I took a couple days back? Well it seems that my body is having a delayed reaction to it. The night it happened it was mainly the back of my head and my left elbow that were bothering me. Now those are fine. It's my left shoulder blade, my lower back, and my hips that are killing me. :-(

But Master looked me over. There are no external bruises or scrapes. However, there may be internal bruising. So I'm going to try and take it easy over the next couple of days.

Last night I was tired, and I knew I had to get up early the next morning. I was going to go to bed, but I knew Master wasn't tired. I was thinking about our talk that we had the night before. One of the things that I had brought up during our discussion was that when He has insomnia, He just stays in the living room, while I go to a cold lonely bed. That is where Him and I differ quite a bit. When I have insomnia I will at the very least walk with Him to the bedroom, and make sure He's settled in before giving Him a kiss and saying goodnight. I basically tuck Him into bed. I know He appreciates it when I do that because He always smiles at me.

Hell, sometimes I'll go to bed with Him, we'll fuck and then either I'm too tired or lazy to get out of bed and so I crash with Him, or I cuddle for a while before excusing myself to the living room so I don't keep Him up.

I told Him I would appreciate it if He would do the same for me. I would like to be tucked in at least. He said that He understood and He was sorry. It's just how He was handling His insomnia.

Well last night He was still suffering from it. But rather than go to the bedroom I asked His permission to sleep on the couch. He granted it. This way He still got to stay up and do what He wanted, but I was still in the same room with Him. I've done this in the past, but hadn't been lately because I was basically dead on my feet and just wanted to go to bed and stay there.

But last night was nice. I slept on the couch until He was ready to go to bed. He woke me up just enough to tell me to go to the bedroom. I got into bed, set my alarm and He was right there next to me, putting His arms around me as I drifted back off to sleep. It made it feel like we were both just settling into bed, together. I was thankful for that.

Work was extremely busy today. It was my coworker's half day. You know, the one that I always complain about? Well lately she has been up to her old tricks of just not wanting to do her work and wanting me to help out. Never mind the fact that I have enough work piling up on my desk.

Anyway, since she was gone and so was my supervisor, I decided to have a little chat with my trainer. I had gone to my supervisor before about this back when the company was in the old building. So I didn't want to go to him again with the same complaint. My trainer agreed, and said that she completely understood where I was coming from. She told me that she might schedule a meeting between her, the coworker, and myself so we can all talk about it, or she might just pull my coworker into a meeting room and discuss it with her herself. Either way is fine with me, I just want it fixed.

I have a feeling my coworker isn't going to be to happy with me. But at this point, I'm past caring. I shouldn't have to suffer because she isn't willing to do her job the way it's supposed to be done.

February 11, 2010

Talking

Last night I stayed up late just in case I did have a concussion. But I'm glad I stayed up because Master and I were able to talk. Like really talk. Not just the "How was your day?" stuff.

We talked about quite a few things.

First it was about my PMS. When I was younger, I didn't really get it as far as the attitude and bitchiness went. But now? It seems to be getting worse each month. This month has been the worse, but I think that's at least partially due to the fact that the anniversary of my grandmother's death was on the 9th. And the anniversary of a bad accident I was in was on the 8th. Both of those dredge up a lot of shit.

But it's not just the bitchiness that I worry about with the PMS. The depression is starting to worry me. And yes I know it is related to my period, because that is when it begins. And once my period is done, the depression is gone. So I am going to try to take Midol or something similar to that starting next month, when it gets to be about that time to see if that helps at all. Master made me promise though that if that doesn't seem to work, then I will go to a doctor about it.

Another topic was how my family, and their problems, seem to be taking over our weekends. My brother was just up two weeks ago. Last week he wanted to come over but canceled because he couldn't find a babysitter. Now this weekend he wants to come up on Saturday. When he first started coming up I told him about once a month wouldn't be a problem. I honestly wouldn't mind more often except for the fact that I have to drive to pick him up and drop him off. That's a lot of driving. He doesn't feel comfortable driving that far. It's about 45 minutes one way.

I'm going to call my brother and talk to him about just rescheduling for like sometime in March.

My dad came up last weekend, which was great. But he wants to come up again this Sunday. And again I wouldn't mind, but Sundays are the days where I don't really like company, and neither does Master because I have to get up early on Monday morning and we like to use that day for "just us" time. This weekend it's because my dad needs new furniture, so I understand that he wants to go to the store up by us. I don't think that it will be very frequent after this. So I'm not going to bother saying anything to my father.

Then there is the sex issue. Sex, when it happens, is still great. But we both felt like something was missing, or that something was off. Well after our talk we agreed that it was a deeper connection that was missing during sex lately. I don't know what has caused that sudden decline, besides maybe stress. Either that or lately when we've been having sex we just kinda go at it. There isn't a lot of foreplay or playing before hand. I think that is part of it as well.

The talk went great. I'm glad that Master and I can talk about such things openly without accusing the other or getting defensive.

Master is still suffering from insomnia, but last night He came to bed with me. I was sore from falling on the ice and His lower back has been giving Him a lot of grief, so we didn't fuck. But we did cuddle and just enjoy laying next to one another, which we haven't done in a few weeks really, before falling asleep.

February 10, 2010

I'm A Clutz

It's official.

Today, after work, we went down to my dad's house. Well we decided to head out of there around 8:30pm. My dad was leaving to go to his new girlfriend's house when we were leaving. Master was walking ahead of me to get the car started. My dad was behind me. Well I walked onto what I thought was black pavement. It turns out it was black ice.

I don't even remember falling or even exactly what happened. It was very quick.

I remember looking up and seeing my dad on my left and my Husband on my right. I quickly said "Don't!" because I was worried one of them would try and help me up. I wasn't ready to move yet.

I did a "bone check" to make sure nothing hurt very badly or was broken. I seemed okay. So I stood up. Dad and Master made sure I was okay.

The worst I have of it is that my left elbow really hurts. I must have knocked it pretty good. And the back of my head hurts. I don't remember hitting my head. But Master is keeping an eye on me and is making sure that I stay awake for a while just to be on the safe side. See, I'm not sure if my head hurts because of it suddenly being tossed back when I fell, or if it hurts because I hit it.

Either way this sucks.

I'm going to cut it here. I don't want to push this and giving myself a worse headache.

February 9, 2010

Snow Day.. Kind Of

This morning I looked outside and it didn't seem that bad. But I knew the news was calling for anywhere from 10 to 14 inches of snow. So I called this weather hotline that our work has to tell us whether or not the office will be open. Of course the automated bitch on the other end of the line informs me that the office will indeed be open.

It took us an hour to get to work, but we made it in one piece and still on time. Yay!

Then around 12:30pm the business manager sends out an e-mail stating that the office will be closing at 2pm due to the snow. They should have just let us stay home. Seriously.

So we head back home. Shortly after getting in the door I go back out to the store to pick up a few things. Once home I munch a little bit and take a nap.

The phone rings and it's my mother. Master woke me up and handed me the still ringing phone, which I wasn't happy about. Mainly because I didn't feel like talking and I knew it was about my brother.

I love my brother. But he's a moron sometimes. So anyway my mom tells me about the ever changing situation regarding my brother and his now ex. My brother is listening to this 22 year old ex of his, who thinks she knows how the world works. Now. Most 22 year olds think they know everything. I get that, but hello.. that doesn't mean you have to believe them.

Blah!

So I answered my mother's questions and got her off the phone. So now I'm cranky, and trying to calm down. Fun for me. Fun for Master too, I'm sure.

February 8, 2010

Reconnecting

Last night after my father left, I wasn't tired at all. So I took a quick bath and then spent some time with Master before we eventually retired to the bedroom.

Once in bed however, Master and I started cuddling which led to Him biting my neck, which felt really good. So as He still had my skin locked between His teeth He rolled me onto my back and positioned Himself between my legs. Shortly there after, He was inside me.

We haven't been having sex a lot lately. Stress, not feeling well, and just generally being tired and/or busy has kind of put our sex life on hold from time to time lately.

The sex was incredible however. He positioned me several different ways before finally having me lay on my stomach and using me for His pleasure only.

He scented my scar by stroking His cock along it, getting my cum smeared all over. I wasn't very gentle when I cleaned Him off with my mouth either, not that He wasn't complaining. ;-)

I wanted more. I really did. I wanted to ride Him. But I knew I had to get up in 6 hours. And Master made it pretty clear that He wanted me to sleep. So today I am horny. I had a rough day at work and I'm mentally exhausted. But I'm horny as hell.

Master, the poor guy, has a bad headache. So hopefully He'll be feeling better by the time we go to bed, He'll be feeling better. *hint hint*

February 7, 2010

Dad Came Over

This will probably be a short post since it is already 10:30pm, and I have to go to work tomorrow.

Today Master and I spent most of the day here at the apartment. We left a couple times just to pick up stuff we needed. But other than that we weren't sure when my dad was coming over, so we just kind of hung around.

Around 5pm my dad called and said they were on their way up. They were here about an hour later.

He brought his new girlfriend. She seems rather nice. She's laid back, which is a good thing. I couldn't really see my dad with someone who is stuck up anyway, but still.. I wasn't sure what to expect.

We just sat in the living room and talked. That was nice. There were no other distractions. My dad is looking for some furniture to replace the stuff that his ex is taking when she moves. So I told him about this used furniture store that is by us. He wants to go there, and have us come with, next week Sunday. I told him that would be fine. Actually I wouldn't mind looking around there anyway, just to see what they have. Maybe we could find a few pieces of furniture ourselves.

We mainly just talked. There weren't a lot of questions or anything like that. I asked his new girlfriend a few questions, like where she was from, and about her kids.. but that was really about it. She didn't ask any questions about me or Master. I'm assuming that my dad pretty much filled her in on everything already.

They left around 10pm. Master asked me what I thought of the new girlfriend. I think she's nice. She's somewhat similar to my dad's now ex... I feel relaxed around her at least.

So, really that's about it. I know, not really exciting. But I still have some things I have to do before I go to bed, and I want some down time with Master as well.

So I'm off. I'll hopefully have a more interesting post tomorrow.

February 6, 2010

Headaches Suck

No, really. They totally do.

Master and I slept in rather late today. And oddly enough we've stayed home all day as well. Most of the day was spent just relaxing and what not.

But then I finally got off my tail and cleaned the kitchen and most of the living room. I say most, because having a German Shepard/Husky mix = never totally clean carpet. There is just so much fur! He sheds year round. It's insane. He's lucky we love him. *laughs*

My dad is coming over tomorrow, probably. With his work schedule who knows.

We were supposed to go to the tattoo parlor today to get Master's latest tattoo touched up but His stomach was a bit upset. So He wanted to put it off.

Aside from that there isn't a lot going on really.

I have this headache that is located at the base of my skull that is driving me nuts. Needless to say the cleaning products didn't help that fact. And it also doesn't help that Tylenol just isn't cutting it. Fun for me!

So... yep. That's pretty much about it.

All of my family drama is continuing, and some what escalating. But I don't really feel like getting into it on here right now. Maybe when my head is feeling better.

February 5, 2010

I'm So Glad This Week Is Over

(For those of you who are wondering, this is Friday 02/05/10's post. I'm creating it slightly after midnight though, so it may read 02/06/10.)

I had called in sick on Monday, and had gone over my personal time by a little over 4 hours. As a result I had to make that time up. I hate going to work on the weekends, so I have been chipped away at it since Tuesday. Tuesday I got an extra half hour in. Wednesday and yesterday I got 45 minutes extra each day. That left me with a little over 2 hours to finish up.

So instead of taking part in my usual carpool, I took our car this morning. I got up at 5am and got to work around 6am. Thanks to that I was still able to leave my job around 12:20pm which was awesome! It sucked getting up that early, but that was better than staying until about 2:30pm on my half day, ya know?

Also I needed to get my driver's license renewed, and going to the DMV on a Saturday is not my idea of a good time. So immediatley after work I hit the DMV. Thankfully it wasn't that busy. But it still took about a half hour to get through it because the printer they use to make the license broke down right before it was my turn and it took them a while to get the back up printer up and running.

Thankfully the picture on it isn't that bad. And now I don't have to worry about it for another 8 years.

After that I hit the gas station to get cigarettes, and finally went home. Master and I relaxed a little while before I started getting really hungry. At that point we went out for an early dinner.

We had a blast! We joked around and just couldn't stop laughing. I was slap happy from lack of sleep obviously, and I think Master just found it amusing. *giggles*

Shortly after we got back home I took a nap on my slave mat. He let me sleep for a couple of hours, which was nice.

Although this weekend is not turning out as I had expected. Not that I'm really complaining mind you.

Bro was supposed to come up this weekend. I was going to go pick him up tomorrow and have him stay for most of the day and drive him back home. Well last night he called me and said he had to cancel because he had to watch his kids. Okay not a problem.

I was still planning on visiting my mother though. But she wanted to reschedule to next weekend. Again fine by me. But then my brother told me he might still be able to come up because his ex might have found a babysitter so he wouldn't have his boys. However, he wouldn't know for sure until about an hour before hand.

So I just told him that I would rather just reschedule. It would piss me off if I drove down there to pick him up because he said there was a babysitter and then be on my way back home with him or already at the apartment and have his ex call saying the babysitter wanted to leave or some shit, or that she had to work late and the babysitter couldn't stay.

It's not that I don't understand. It's just that it would piss me off because of all the gas (all of my family lives about 45 minutes away) and the fact of not knowing what the hell was going on.

He said he understood, so we'll just play it by ear from there.

My dad is probably still coming up sometime on Sunday though. I hope it's not too late because I like to relax at home with just Master on Sunday evenings, since I have to work the next day.

February 4, 2010

Date Nights

While Master and I were watching Dexter last night I suddenly looked up at Him and said, "Babe? When we have some extra cash I think we should plan a date night."

He smiled, and said that would be great. I'm thinking maybe a movie (at the theater, not at home) and then dinner somewhere. Now Master and I will try to go out to dinner about once a week if we have the money. But I want it to actually feel like a date, ya know?

I know what some of you may be thinking. "You guys live together. You're married for fuck's sake. What do you need a date night for?"

And honestly, I used to think that too. Like people who don't have children living at home who plan date nights with their live in significant other and/or spouse... I thought it was weird. That is until I started to realize how much life can just take over and you lose sight of one another for a while. Not totally, though. I mean we're still affectionate and playful. But still. I think it would be good to reconnect on a deeper, more relaxed level.

But honestly, for about a month now we've been so focused on everyone else. My brother. My dad. My mom. His mom. SS. The list continues. It seems when we're together and just sitting and talking, that's all we talk about. And I'm not saying that's a bad thing or that I'm mad about it. There is a lot going on. But I want a night to just focus on us. No answering the phone. No making plans with other people. Just us and no talking about all the other stuff.

I think it will be nice. And I also think we both need it.

I've created a poll so you guys can let me know (and the other people who stumble across this blog) whether or not you do date nights with your significant other. Please feel free to participate! :-)

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Also you may notice that at the bottom of each post there is a "rate this post" option with five stars. You can now rate all of my posts! :-D This is a new feature that I stumbled upon here on WordPress. I think it'll prove to be interesting.

February 3, 2010

Catching Up

I didn't do my blog post last night because Master and I had gotten home a little late and He said that it would be fine for me to skip it. So I did.

We had gone down to my dad's house last night. My dad finally was able to tell me what is going on. Him and his now exgirlfriend are in fact broken up, and have been for about two months. DW (my dad's now ex) is still living there and waiting to find a place. They are aiming at April right now. My dad is seeing someone new. She is 51 and my dad says he loves her. All I said was that I just want him to be happy. I mean he's my dad, of course I want him to be happy, ya know? He assured me that he is.

In fact he wants to come up to our apartment on Sunday, and bring his new girlfriend with him. He hasn't been up to our apartment in about two years, so needless to say I said that would be fine. I'm a little surprised he wants me to meet his girlfriend so soon. But then again Master and I were together only a few months when He met my father, so yeah.. I guess.

Plus I don't know if it's as big of a deal now to my dad, since I'm damn near 27 and what not. He just figures he's 49 years old, I'm almost 27, we're both adults and if I wasn't comfortable with it I would say something. And he's right.

To be honest when my dad was telling me everything, it was the closest I've felt to him in... damn... years. My dad typically doesn't like getting all serious. We normally just joke around and hang out. So that was kind of cool actually.

The problem with my dad coming up on Sunday is that my brother wants to come up Saturday, and spend the night. That is a lot of family time in one weekend. I love my father and my brother, but damn. Plus, I know my brother would not do well with meeting Dad's new girlfriend already.

My brother is 25, but he has some mental disabilities where he doesn't cope with things the same way a "normal" 25 year old would. In fact Bro still wishes our parents would get back together. They have been divorced for 10 years now. My brother was 15 and I was 17 when they split. My mother has a new husband that she has been with for about 8 years. Yeah. There is no chance in hell that's happening.

So I'm thinking about two other possibilities. One way or another I'm having dad come up. Bro was just here two weeks ago. Dad hasn't been here in a long time, and I haven't seen a lot of him lately.

Either 1) I'll have my brother come up on Saturday, but he just won't spend the night. Or 2) Totally reschedule with my brother.

But I don't want Bro thinking I'm pushing him aside for my dad. It's just that driving a 45 minute one way trip four times (drive down and pick up, drive back, drive down to drop off, drive back) is hell on the gas tank. And my mom has offered to hand me $10 in gas money, but still.

I don't know. I just told Master we would decide everything on Friday, as far as my brother goes.

As it is on Friday I won't be getting out at noon because I have a few hours to make-up from taking off on Monday due to not feeling well. I think it'll only be like 2 1/2 hours. But still. Getting out at 2:30pm on a day you normally get out at noon? Yeah. That bites.

February 1, 2010

Not Feeling Well

Last night I tried to go to bed around my usual time. Actually it was about an hour and a half later than that. But I couldn't fall asleep. For the past two days my stomach has been giving me problems, and it's uncomfortable.

So after a while I knew I wasn't going to fall asleep so I went back out into the living room with Master. He asked me what was wrong, and I told Him. He said that maybe I should stay home from work, since I haven't been feeling well for the past two days, and I'm in a constant state of discomfort.

So I weighed the pros and cons of it. And I decided that He was right. If I went to work I probably just would have ended up feeling worse and would have had the rest of the week to get through.

So I called in. The extra sleep helped. My stomach is getting gradually better however. And I will be going to work tomorrow.

The only problem is that I didn't have enough personal time to cover having a whole day out of the office. So I have to talk to my supervisor tomorrow about how things proceed from there. The employee handbook says you have to make that time up. But MZ from my department says that our supervisor doesn't always have us do that. So who knows.

I may have to stay on my half day. But oh well. Things happen.

I'm still not feeling 100%, but not much to be done about it. My body will eventually regulate itself.